The day before summer


The past two weeks have felt like six months. Kevin began hospice two weeks ago Sunday. After over a year of nagging him to try cannabis oil, he finally asked me to whisk him to Colorado to try it. I was willing to move, or simply drop everything and visit Washington a year ago. Only…

Bless the broken road


As I watch Kevin sleep and sleep, oxygen going, in our dining room. He wakes easily, but then quickly drifts to sleep. I kiss him. I ask him, “Who loves you?” and he says, “You do.” and I tell him he is surrounded by love – with children, friends and family. I say,  “everyone loves…

A really bad car


My son is driving my grandmother’s car. It is a thing of pride and accomplishment, in spite of its looks. I bought it from my grandfather in 2007. A luxurious, pearl-colored Ford Lincoln with white leather seats, it was so expensive the dealership photographed my grandparents in front of the car when they bought it.…

Home sweet home


5 days in the hospital – most of them just boring We’re home now from hospital stay #2. Five days this time, which began from a massively low (3.4, then 4.0) hemoglobin count. So low, that as he stepped from the car to the oncology office’s door, Kevin collapsed on the pavement. I and two…

What a week


What a week it has been. If you’re interested, here are the nitty gritty details. Brain bleed Tuesday, May 13th, Kevin and Kristin ran some errands together and went to lunch. On the way back, Kevin was starting to drive back home, and suddenly couldn’t speak. As he later said, “I knew what I wanted…