Look back, move forward.


Martin Luther King once said “Faith is taking the first step even when you can’t see the whole staircase.” And so, in that spirit, after the memorials (which I will write about later), I have forged ahead leaving our beloved, but over-the-top creepy old house. While it’s a gorgeous place, the creepiness was a major problem…

Peace kisses the mountains


  Memorial Two is coming up, to put the rest of Kevin to rest, high in a mountain like the Indian natives there, to rest in the dust with many who fought, lived and died on that mountain. On hidden cannonballs, on green places which now cover the blood of 40,000 men. I hope each ashy spec raises…

I’m Free


Sorry for the double post Facebook friends, but I wanted to log this into the blog so I can reread it later. I’ve heard it said that music connects to heavenly realms easier because, being non-physical, it can be shared spiritually. An interesting idea. I walked Joey yesterday, listening to my ipod, begging Kevin to communicate…

Ruhe in Frieden meine Liebe


      Kevin Thomas Kyle, devoted and gentle father, and long-awaited love of my life, passed peacefully at 2:35 am, today Saturday June 28th. Everyone in the family helped and took turns doing the midnight watch for meds – this time it was Brad’s turn, as I slept next to Kevin in our bed…

Quiet


The big kids, friends and family have gone home. The hospice nurse and CNA were in earlier. Jesse and Chris are upstairs playing video games and Kevin is sleeping. Dishes are done. What bothers me is the quiet. I used to yearn for quiet. When I was single and the kids were older and out…